My word

 Them: “But it feels like YOU'RE replacing me”  Me: “Oh no no no I would never, I could never, you’re my…” Something you always needed confirmation for, yet it should have been something I asked instead. Throughout all those years I never expected to be replaced or dropped so instantaneously. You always made it seem like I would be the one to move on without you, if anything. No matter what people told me about you, our frienship, I never let that alter my view of you. I guess sometimes we make wrong assumptions of people. It doesn’t feel good to see you moving on so easily. Having someone just fill my spot and going on as though we never even met. I understand why you feared that loss... being on the other end is hurtful and hard. The sad part is I saw it coming a few weeks before, but I thought I was being ridiculous and decided not to believe myself. My second guesses have always been wrong, but I truly felt I was right this time. Every sign I should have taken with more conside

Written on 11/28/2022 Oh the things I wish I could say. The way that you encapsulate my mind every second leaves me sitting through my classes without a single scribble on the page, even driving around the city forgetting which way is right and which is left. How do you do that thing? That thing where you make me feel like nothing else matters. That thing where when my phone buzzes I hope that it is you, but as soon as I see your name I get that funny feeling like I should be nervous. That thing where when I feel scared I make myself feel obligated to tell you everything because you make me feel better. You make me feel good. You make me feel the sun in the sky through the dark cloudy days. You make the storms refreshing and the puddles endless mirrors that hold importance. You create symbolic meaning for everyday objects so that when I see them, I think of you. My life used to be managed by the sunrise and set. Everyday I hoped I could see it again the next day. The sun's clockwor